Dear Logos:
You remind me a little bit of my younger (2021) self when I first entered this forum.
I entered as a Christian who (although I did not realize it at the time) was in the beginning of a deconstruction journey. Your path of course need not mirror my own.
I came seeking information about Creation, Intelligent Design and Evolution. I was already predisposed to take an Evolutionary stance, so found little resistance there.
I was however more of a confirmed Theist and decided I could proudly brandish my William Lane Craig arguments and win on the battlefield of ideas.
I quickly discovered that the battle is not so easily won, and while I do respect Dr. Craig’s contributions to the field, he is not the last word on the subject. You have not quoted him yourself that I see, but I point this out only to illustrate my own journey.
I learned that these conversations span multiple fields and are much, much more complicated than I realized. I needed intellectual space, so I took a break from the forum, duly chastened and hopefully a tiny bit wiser.
I pursued my own lines of inquiry, delving mostly into OT and NT criticism. Fascinating fields, regardless of your faith commitments (or none at all).
I have since returned and find myself closer to the end of my deconstruction journey. I still don’t fully know where I land.
If I may offer, in all kindness, a few thoughts to help you in your own journey:
- Do not assume that the Bible is “the Word of God”, nor assume that it is inerrant or inspired. Call its bluff. If it really is those things, then careful analysis and observation should prove it to possess those qualities.
- Allow the data to drive you. Let the evidential chips fall where they may. Ask yourself if the data truly compels you to believe, or if you simply want to choose the potentially weaker side. In some cases, either choice is fine, but be honest with your choice and understand that at many points along the way you will have to beg the question in favor of your position. Own those points and recognize that others (like many of the very thoughtful people here) have drawn different conclusions.
I mean this kindly, as a friend and fellow human being who is also trying to figure out this thing we call “life”.
Allow your experience on this forum to challenge you. It did me, and I am a better person for it.