As you know I never bought in to the need for a bloody sacrifice of an innocent man as the only way to appease a God who was offended by the free thought of creatures he supposedly made.
If one has that belief and has the desire to help his fellow man, I find that admirable. Each of us has strengths that could be used in the service of others. I would prefer to see your skills as a doctor, as a researcher , as an educator to make the world better for all of us without the need for you to suffer. I would rather see you happlily serving other like you do now. I don’t think any man should have to suffer an agonizing death to appease the gods or others. I share your passion to work on the real problems we see all around us. But we have to pick our fights carefully as we have limited resources and time. As a physician, is the opiod crisis something you can accomplish something good on?