Thanks for explaining. I feel like I should explain my knowledge of that since you did. I’m not sure which book I read first - Seeking Allah, Finding Jesus or Cold Case Christianity but after that I began watching both apologetics videos on YouTube as well as Christian-Muslim debates. As I watched Christians and ex-Muslims pick apart Islam that gave me more confidence in Christianity (because I think Christianity is much easier to defend on multiple levels) even though apologists themselves made me sometimes uncomfortable with things I didn’t know - manuscript errors, interpolations, etc. It was worth wrestling through those things. Everything I learned about evolution has been reading on this forum or news articles or youtube. But I had always assumed the mainstream scientific community was better at making their case/ it had better explanations, so it doesn’t usually bother me that I don’t have all the answers, just when the questions come at me all at once is overwhelming here. I occasionally watch skeptic or ex-Christian videos, more often lately Paulogia and a few Jon Steingard recently. I believe you had said you found an Aron Ra video/podcast convincing. I have listened to other youtubers saying he’s very good at explaining evolution. From what I’ve seen, fairly hostile to religion also. 
I am curious to hear what he has to say.
Overall, I know even if I decided evolution was true, I don’t think I’d seriously doubt my faith, just the inerrancy of the Bible. I don’t like other explanations for purpose, meaning, beauty, or morality. Plus I’m sick of myself and my faults, and the evil in this world and excited about resurrected Valerie 2.0. 
Jesus makes sense of all of that for me and I like thinking about God. So that’s where I’m at. It fascinates me in a way that people can change quickly or reorient that fast. Maybe I’m not wired that way; I find it hard to imagine. It must be an emotional ride.
Regarding an old universe and evolution, I wonder if then you’d give Ken Ham props and say Genesis is foundational to Christianity and when that crumbled you lost your faith, or was it more on the end of evolution gave legitimacy to atheism?
Maybe this is a question I should start a new thread with, but for instance, I was watching Jon Steingard and Paulogia have a conversation and Paul admitted the evolutionary explanation of dinosaurs is what really began his doubt about Christianity and Jon said reading Sapiens made him really think it was possible God didn’t exist. I don’t always agree with Ken Ham’s explanations but I do think evolution gives atheism legitimacy, in fact I don’t think it makes intellectual sense without it, and I’m wondering if atheists agree.
I wish churches would admit there is evidence for evolution, but science isn’t the most important question. I wish scientists would affirm that there is reason for the scientific community to defend evolution if it’s foundational to the majority’s lack of belief.
(I can make a new thread if anyone wishes to respond to those comments, because I’m actually curious what everyone thinks.)